envy

i don’t know why i am so envious of other people.  i know i need to get it out of my system.  i guess it’s because of my frustrations that i am driven to feel this.  it’s not a good feeling.  pulls me down most of the time.  i need to concentrate on what i am capable of.  i know i need to focus on what i can do.  i shouldn’t dwell on something that is not me.  i just wish sometimes i could be that person.  able to do everything.  that is impossible of course.  i guess it’s the reason why i feel like i have to know how to do everything.  jack of all trades, master of none.

svefn-g-englar

what the hell happened to my post?  i was going to edit it but now it’s gone.  anyway, i hope i remember it the way i wrote it the first time:

it’s only been recently that i really started listening to sigur ros.  my husband used to play it before or during my sleep.  for the past week, i have been listening to sigur ros on my way to work while riding the bus.  i can feel that the music is really emotional and there is much sadness in it.  this is my favorite song right now apart from staralfur and saeglopur.

Svefn-g-englar

Ég Er Kominn Aftur
Inn I Þig
Það Er Svo Gott Að Vera Hér
En Stoppa Stutt Við
Eg Flýt Um I Neðarsjávar Hýði
A Hóteli Beintengdur Við Rafmagnstöfluna Og Nærist
Tjú Tjú
En Biðin Gerir Mig Leiðan – Brot Hættan Sparka Frá Mér
Og Kall A – Verð Að Fara – Hjálp
Tjú Tjú
Eg Spring Ut Og Friðurinn I Loft Upp
Baðaður Nýju Ljósi
Eg Græt Og Eg Græt – Aftengdur
Onýttur Heili Settur A Brjóst
Og Mataður Af Svefn-G-Englum

strong>translation:

Sleepwalkers

I’m Here Again
Inside You
It’s So Nice In Here
But I Can’t Stay For Long
I Float Around In Liquid Hibernation
In A Hotel Nourishing On The Electricity Board
Tyoowoohoo
But The Wait Makes Me Uneasy – I Kick The Fragility Away
And Shout – I Have To Go – Help
Tyoowoohoo
I Explode Out And The Peace Is No More
Bathed In New Light
I Cry And Cry – Disconnected
An Unused Brain Put On Breasts
And Fed By Sleepwalkers

hannibal lecter

for the past two days, i was on a movie marathon. i was watching the hannibal sequels/prequels. i liked all of them, but my stomach did not. the other night, we had steak for dinner. i took a bite but couldn’t quite swallow it. i had an alternative which was spaghetti and it didn’t go down well also but i had no choice – it was either spaghetti or go hungry. for the past two days, i have been feeling like throwing up, and going vegetarian. maybe it’s the new dietary supplement i’m taking or maybe it’s something else. i am sure it’s not the movie.

i don’t want to miss him anymore

three months from now, i hope that i’ll be with him. this last time he left was harder than the first time. there are parts of the day when i would remember him and just feel sad and hope that i was with him at that moment. i plan to busy myself with work to let those three months go by as quickly as it could. i also plan on not using my credit card anymore so that i can pay it off and be able to go by january. i do hope that everything goes well and for the better.

liquor, prime and soul kitchen

i just finished reading soul kitchen, the third in the series of novels by poppy z brite. i couldn’t put down these three books and i just can’t get enough of rickey and g-man. now that i’m done with the last novel for now, i feel like i will miss them. i hope a new one comes out soon so i can read about them again. these were definitely good reads and i would recommend it to anyone.